What.. is this? - Nicholas

Breaking his concentration made her smile, because she felt it way before he told her, feeling how he fought against it. She knew that the healing would be good for her, but it wasn’t exactly what she wanted right now. That her little scheme worked, just made it all better, but in the end, it was all caused by the way he teased her.  
She felt her heart pound in her chest like crazy, just by his touch. This was like a drug for her and he was just giving her more and more. But instead of feeling satisfied, she rather hungered for more. As he leaned in on her, she used the opportunity to wrap her whole arm around his neck, pressing him closer to her, feeling a tingling linger on her skin after every kiss, the roughness making her wilder:”.. You don’t have to be so cautious.. I wont break..” she mumbled with a slight smile on her face However, she really appreciated how thoughtful he was about it, being cautious just for her. She needed more, the small sensation in feeling his lips dance on her skin, the teeth leaving their marks, she felt the need to grab his shoulder, tightening her grip as she pressed him closer.
“.. Undress me..” she whispered in his ear, a tone mixed with something commanding yet just as pleading. The craving was getting a bit too much for her and it made her a bit eager. She wouldn’t really take no for an answer, but it wasn’t like she was expecting a no either. She looked at him, awaiting his next move. It wasn’t that she didn’t want to pull the next move, but she could feel how eager he was getting, and the best thing in her head was to let him do whatever he wanted to her.
And if she had to be fair, she wasn’t exactly the most experienced in this sort of thing. She could follow her instinct, but it was clear that she was holding a bit back, careful of doing anything wrong. Even thinking about that they had already been through it, it was still one of her deep insecurities. The fear of failing or making herself seem foolish. She wasn’t exactly thinking about all this, but it was lying in the back of her mind. She ran her fingers down his upper back, the shirt stopping her fingers, so instead she grabbed it, pulling it gently to get him to take it off.

Him kissing her body was the best feeling ever, it was constant waves of shivers going through her body. She ran her fingers up in his hair and watched him as he moved up. She was biting her lip, exhaling deeply through her mouth. She put her arms around his neck as he lifted her, giving off a soft moan by the grip on her butt. She looked him deeply in the eyes with a lustful look as she listened to him speak. A smile formed on her face as she removed the few inches from their faces, returning every kiss with such eagerness. She just knew that she couldn’t hold herself back any longer, so she wasn’t going to.

When they were done, she wasn’t sure how long they had been in bed, but her hair was such a mess. She smiled at him as he healed her, running her fingers up his arm with a smile on her face:” Thank you..” she said, caressing his face in one stroke. She watched him fetch a shirt and she pouted shortly:” I liked it better without the shirt..” she teased with a slight smile. She didn’t want him to leave her, but she also knew that they couldn’t just stay in bed all day – Even though the thought was tempting. She lied back down, rolling to the side to where he was lying before, smiling to herself. Then she got up. Before she went to get dressed, she fixed her hair, making it go back to look somewhat decent again.
After getting dressed, putting on her own pants but stealing one of his shirts, actually two, seeing that she didn’t want to use the bloody jacket ever again, she went to the study room. She noticed the notebook, lying on the floor. She just stared at it with her eyes pinched together. She wasn’t sure how she felt about it. A second or two passed before she went over to it and picked it up from the ground, standing with it in her hands. And then she remembered Lucy. She fastened her grip on the book, digging her nails into it with a frown on her face. All of it, just to let it go. It fell on the floor, making a loud sound as it slammed against the floor.

As she turned around, he was there, which startled her. She looked at him with an unreadable expression for a few seconds before she then laughed a cheerful sincere laugh:” I’m sorry. I was caught up in my thoughts. But yeah, I’m ready to go.” She said with a smile on her face. It was obvious that the book had no power over her anymore and that she actually was a stronger independent person, now that Lucy was missing. She grabbed him by the hand, lacing their fingers and proceeded to walk outside.
It felt so good to be around him. She glanced at him as they walked, to then just look away again. Glancing because she felt the need to look at him all the time, yet she didn’t want to be weird about it. She smiled to herself. It was nice to feel so in love with someone. She didn’t know where they were going, so she just followed him, holding his hand tightly, running her thumb up and down the back of his hand and his index finger.

She noticed that he was mimicking her, making a happy pout as she looked away:” I just really like to look at you.. That’s all” she excused herself as she looked at him. She then looked at the ground, but only for a short while, she had to resume glancing at him.
Her lack of social skills really came to the test being outside. She didn’t quite feel at ease, however it would’ve been much worse if Nicholas hadn’t been there. She made sure to stay close to him, keeping an eye on him and the surroundings. When he asked her what she wanted to do later, she smiled a bit to herself:” Eat.” she simply replied in a happy tone. Her hunger had gotten to her and she was feeling a bit odd from it.
Meeting a new people was a weird experience for her. She looked slightly confused when Nicholas presented her to this stranger, who weren't a stranger to Nicholas, before she sort of hid behind him, letting them do their business. She refused to let go of his hand, gripping it tighter if he tried to let go. When Jack left, she looked in his direction, not really sure how to react:” You’re also all business” she said, looking at him before smiling a little bit. As a person that didn’t really have any line of work, even if Nicholas felt that he wasn’t doing much work, for Lucile it seemed like a whole lot.

When Langdon saw them, standing by a fire, he lifted his hand, waving them over. “Hey Nicholas. I assume by your sudden cheery mood, the pretty girl must be the mysterious Lucile. Her eyes remind me of Moon.” He said with a smile. Lucile tilted her head to the side, slightly confused as she looked at Nicholas for an answer. However, looking at him made her so happy. She smiled, leaning in to kiss him on the cheek, with no reason what so ever. She just felt like it. Langdon shook his head as he rolled his eyes:” All lovey dovey, I see. Very busy at it as well” he remarked with a smile, looking at the marks on Nicholas’ neck.
Lucile pulled Nicholas closer to her, pinching her eyes at Langdon. Somehow, she felt very threatened by him, but that was because she never really understood the concept of friendship. After all Nicholas was the closest she had ever been with anyone, if she had even had friends at all. Her tension came to show as she tightened her grip in his hand, as if she feared he’d let her go. Langdon noticed it all. He shook his head as he turned around and excused himself from the demons he was conversing with before they arrived.
“Now now, don’t worry princess. I wont steal your man. He’s all yours.” he reassured her when he turned back around, which made her calm down a little bit. She smiled slightly, but kept glancing at Nicholas. Her stomach rumbled once again and she pushed her free hand against it. Langdon excused himself, going in a door to a building before coming out again with a package in his hand. He held it out for Lucile to take it. She stared at the package for a short while before she took it. She already knew what it was, she could smell it. “Thank you..” she mumbled, staring at the package.
Langdon looked confused at her for a little while before he realized:” Oh. That explains it” he concluded. Lucile looked up at him, not sure what he meant. He smiled shortly:” Your sister did mention that socializing weren’t your biggest strengths.” he explained. She just stared at him, not really knowing what to say. It wasn’t awkward for her, but Langdon felt a bit odd. Overall as a person that had just met Lucile, he had quickly noticed by her shyness and constant watching over Nicholas that she didnt want any further attention. It did however spark his curiousity about the couple. He turned to Nicholas with a curious look:” Sooooo. Did you find the cure?” he asked.

Him telling her not to ask, just made her want to ask. She tilted her head but left the question for later when things would be more private. She certainly wanted to know why Langdon knew so much about her and how Nicholas had seemed to talk about her. “You know I will ask…” she mumbled just for him to hear with a slight pouty face.
”I know he’s harmless.” she simply said, looking at Langdon with a slight frown. She wasn’t scared of him at all. Her eyes glided around his face, Lucy’s observation skills were still lingering in her mind and probably never to be erased. She exhaled before she said:” The scar is self-inflicted, to either look scary or intimidating. The lack of depth shows that you had trouble… most probably sensitive pain receptors,” while keeping a expressionless face. Langdon stood there, staring in confusion for a few seconds, before bursting into a cheerful laughter:” She’s good. Really good.”

He looked very relieved after hearing about the vaccine:” Well that’s good. Very good. Thank you for helping us Nicholas. If there’s anything you ever need, don’t be a stranger,” he said with a big smile. The syringe with the vaccine was handed to a nearby demon that went into the house Langdon had been in a few moments ago. As he turned back and Nicholas asked if there was anything else, he rubbed his neck while thinking:” Oh yeah. Just one thing. For Lucile.” he said as he reached down his pocket and picked up a necklace, a carving of a half moon made of bone in a leather strap:” Its from Moon. She wanted you to have it. She said she’ll be gone for a while.. The article and stuff.. Until things have calmed down a little.” he then explained. Lucile took the necklace and looked at it, not really sure what it was. She put it in her pocket and nodded at Langdon. “Take care.” was Langdon’s parting words as he went in the house.
When Nicholas turned to her and grabbed her other hand, she looked at him and smiled happily:” Eat.” she simply repeated with a big smile on her face. Then she chuckled and shook her head. She had calmed down a bit so she was loosening up, trying to be more talkative: “I wanna go to the woods. I know this amaaazing~ place. You gotta see it.” she said in a cheery tone. She leaned in, gently kissing his lips as she couldn’t really contain her need to withstand physical contact with him.

She let go of his other hand as she started walking, seeing that she knew exactly where they had to go. She was smiling to herself while looking ahead, concentrating on not going the wrong way or lose track of where they would be. She was very excited to show him. When they got out of town, she seemed to be completely calm. She enjoyed being in nature, it was so freeing and the lack of social encounters completely erased the fear of having to socialize. She went down a path in the woods, before she suddenly went off it. She turned around and booped his nose, before letting go of his hand to turn around again and run. The trees and the growth made it difficult to see where she was running to, but she seemed to know her way around it all.
She stopped at some sort of hill, even though it wasn’t really certain, due to all the trees placed on it. She looked back and waved at him:” Nicholas. You’re slooooow~” she yelled happily while she waited for him to catch up. She then turned herself towards the opening, a beautiful meadow unravelled, even though the whole forest was in grey and dark colours, the meadow was filled with the uttermost colourful and beautiful flowers. Lucile looked at it all with a big smile on her face:” This…” she said before turning her head to Nicholas.

She smiled at him struggling to breathe:” I’m not sure that there is much scenery to see towards the ground… But that’s okay” she kept teasing him. She would’ve however also have been out of breath if it wasn’t because she was used to run around in this terrain, especially around this place. Cities could confuse her with their similarities, but somehow she was able to never get lost in nature. To her, trees were as simple as buildings would be for him – But she wouldn’t be able to find her way around the narrow streets and tall buildings.
As she felt his arms around her, she leaned her head back on his shoulder as her hands held a loose grip on his arms. She exhaled with a smile as she listened to him speak:” It’s my secret hideout. I don’t show this to anyone, you know?” she said in a silly tone as if she would have anyone else to show it to, not that it really mattered. She only wanted to show it to him anyway.
Before she got to turn around to place a kiss on his lips – He suddenly flipped her around and for a second she just stared ahead, trying to figure out what had just happened. Then she looked back at him and smiled as she turned back around and ran towards him. When she was in range, she’d wrap her arms around his neck and press herself towards him in a warm embrace. “You know I’d catch up eventually,” she muttered in his shirt, as she refused to let go of him.
“You make me really happy,” she murmured in his shirt, not really sure if she’d want him to hear it or not. It felt weird to say for her. She wasn’t used to feeling all these emotions and for some reason it was scaring her a little bit. Clinging onto Nicholas was however making her feel safe and confused at the same time. She moved her head, looking at his face before she asked, in a somewhat serious tone:” How do I make you feel?” which would seem like a silly question but it was very serious for her.
However, continuous seriousness wasn’t really her forte. Therefore, after asking her question, she let go on her grip around him shortly before she let herself fall into the flowers – A soft and delightful landing. She smiled, looking at him. “It will look even better during the summer… More colours… Sunny weather… I will probably spent most of the summer season right here – In this spot” she said with a big grin on her face.

As he spoke about his feelings, she looked at him, not exactly with a smile but without a doubt was she happy. It was more that she focused on listening to him, imprinting every word that was said. To her it meant a lot that he would tell her this, it seemed like such a minor detail but for her it was a pretty big deal. She couldn’t help but smile before letting him go.
Him dropping down beside her, made her turn on her side after explaining summer. She smiled at him and pinched his hand:” You better,” she warned him in a jokingly manner, but she was hoping to spend as much time with him as possible. He meant too much for her to want anything else. She could already imagine them laying in the beautiful summer flowers, feeling the warmth of the sun. Just being there with him and no one else.
She closed her eyes as he kissed her lips, returning the same softness as he gave. It was funny to her because she had never been really fond of kissing. Or more that she hadn’t really kissed anyone before Nicholas, so it was only fair of her to not really care about it. But with Nicholas it was different. She felt the need to kiss him or somehow stay in touch with him, otherwise she’d go mad.
When he said he loved her she opened her eyes in a bit of a scared and confused manner as she sat up:” You.. love me? Love is a really strong word..” she then said, not because she didn’t want him to, but for her it had another meaning. The last people who had told her that they loved her, had ended up leaving her to be alone for all eternity. She grabbed his shirt and pulled herself closer to him as she sought protection from him – Not from anything on the meadow but her memories. “The last ones… Who told me that they loved me.. Just left me to die..” she whispered, loud enough for him to hear.
It was hard enough for her not to start sobbing, however she looked up at him as a tear rolled down her cheek:” But its okay… if its you.. Even if you get tired of me.. Or doesn’t love me anymore.. You still made me happier than anything.. And because I love you” she said in a low voice shortly before wrapping her arms around him. She closed her eyes and smiled – After all he was the one who had shown her feelings she never knew she had.
After a while she let go of him, before pulling herself a bit away. She looked at him, shortly before putting her hands on his cheeks:” You’re not feeling cold right?” she asked in a bit worried manner. She had forgotten that this was winter and for humans it could be quite dangerous to get cold. Before she even got an answer, she had pushed herself closer to him, pressing her mildly warm body against his and wrapped her arms around him. Not that she was the warmest, but it was at least better than the cold.

She listened to him and all his words just made her smile. It drew away the insecurity and replaced it all with comfort. It was weird for her to feel like this, but she was sure that she could get used to it. Just not in an instant. This would take time, she knew that. She was dwelling in her thoughts, cuddling up to him as a soothing voice in the distance was singing. She closed her eyes and inhaled some of the cold air with a slight smile. Then he told her that she could tell him everything, which made her look at him, "I wasnt planning on keeping secrets from you," she bluntly said, unaffected by what he said. Of course she knew that she could tell him anything. But that was just her lack of understanding from people. How she had some sort of primitive thinking in her, even with the mind of Lucy.
The voices were starting to make her think that she was going crazy though. She sat up and looked around before she looked at him, "Do you hear that too? So beautiful..." she asked with a rather curious voice as her head turned towards the voice. It was some sort of song. She got up on her feet and waved at him to follow her as she started walking towards it. The singing got louder and louder as they neared some sort of river behind the trees. Lucile sat down on her knees, looking towards the water to see that two naked women were the ones who were singing. She just stared at them and the more she looked and listened, the more enchanted she seemed.
Because these women were no ordinary women. They were some sort of siren, living in these forests. Lucile who had never met them before, was struck by their voices and beauty. She felt Lucy pressing on but she refused to give up control. "Stop fighting. You'll get us killed you moron." Lucy warned as a begging voice in her head, yet fogged out compared to the enchanting voices of the sirens. Lucile just stared at the women before she got up. Lucy tried with all her might to fight it, but it was all up to Nicholas, unless he was struck by the sirens too.